Thursday, March 31, 2011


4 or 5 days ago, I got a call from my friend who is living in Canada. She was telling me that how the world is turning into chaos. Then said, with all these, she is feeling that Our Jesus Christ is coming soon. More over she said she heard the event will be in this year. I listened and just said, "On one know beside God!"

NOTE: My friend is the only Christian of her Buddish family.

I firmly do believe in the second coming of Christ. No matter how much you said you are a Christian but if you do not believe in "Christ returning to us", you are not a Christian.

But I do not believe in that someone said she or he know exactly the date of our Lord is coming. Because in the Bible said, "No one know exactly the date beside God and our God as human flash, Jesus Christ."

Before Christ was taken into heaven, when the disciples asked , " What will be the sign was your coming, and at the end of age??" (Matthew 24:3) and this is what Christ said, " Nation will rise against Nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be great earth quakes, famines and pestilences in various places and fearful events and great signs from heaven." (Luck 21:10).

You can also read same Christ said in Mathew 24, Mark 13 and Luke 21. 3 disciples had written about the same record!!

One thing to my very interesting is....after our Christ Resurrection, He was still living on earth for 40 + days. On those 40 + days, surprisingly no one can't harm him, mock him , against him nor abuse him. How I know? I read the bible and the bible did not mention any of those.

The other day I saw a title some where and the article said.....

"Does Japan punishment by God?"

Some said, YES and some said, NO!

This is my answer: I do not know. Honestly I answer it, I don't know!!

I am not angel nor not dare to put my mind in our GOD's place. God is so much higher than me and even my best idea can't compare any of our GOD's plans at all.

This is my prayer: "Our Heavenly God,

No matter what is happenning around on this earth, Please guides me and leads me to live under thy sight.

In Christ name,


Monday, March 28, 2011

Quake and my Grandma

Last week, I think on Thursday night, our building was swinging for 30 t0 40 seconds. My passed experience of huge quake in Indonesia, I knew it this might be an earthquake not small but big quake. Also knew that it might be not far from us.

The epicenter was very close to Thai and Burmese border. Some said 7 but some said 6.8 R.

Me, Robins, Shan and my part time helper, we all ran down to the ground floor. I told everyone OUT!! My cook was sleeping. We ran but she slept over the quake. We came up she said to us, "What happen??" I told her, "Nothing!"

My second house is nothing happened but my grand mama got sick. The quake got her real scare. I am sending my cook to my grandma to taking care of her for awhile.
My grandma is my role model!!!

On Friday and Saturday, my grand ma was so sick but on Sunday she was in the Church. She told her pastor to pick her up and said to him, "Sundday is my Church day and I have to go pray. Please pick me up!" The Pastor did pick up my Gma. Thank you pastor!!!

She was in the hospital on Saturday evening. The doctor took X ray and did the blood test. Her bone, her mind are still good but the blood test show she got some virus in the Kidney.

I spoke to the doctor by phone and the doctor said my Gma needs antibiotic injection for 7 days. Have you ever heard antibiotic injection???

Got into google and found out the yes they do have antibiotic injection for human and also for the fish!! You search under "Antibiotic injection", you can read all kind of ta ta ta ta ta.

Very thankful for my grandma is getting better and my house is still pretty too.

My thought and prayers are with the quake vitims.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Double Blessing!

Two reasons I wanted to go back to USA. The first reason, very soon my son is going to boarding school and I wanted to be close by him. The second reason, I like my mother in law and she just lost her husband. I do feel for her and thinking that old lady should not be a lone or lonely. Oh yes she has help.

Two reasons I wanted to stay in Bangkok. The first reason is, Robins loves his job in here. The second reason, I am thinking about my grand mother. Seeing her is a joyful moment and leaving her is a misery for me.

My husband got an job offered by XXXX, as the CEO position. The good news is they are going to pay my insurance. As I mentioned in my last blog, the insurance can screw you and can push you in the corner which can cause you suffocation. The insurance can make you angry woman, ugly woman, screaming woman and bitching woman. You lists all the bad feeling and the lists will never end.

I was once suffer the suffocation by the insurance. We were still paying for 65,000US$ per year but 95,000US$ per year is getting very very suffocation and if I keep paying them I will be closed to eat nothing but crap.

Above of all, "The Insurance" is getting into the center point! In life sometime the decision is depend on not your feeling but on what is good for us.

Double blessing??? Yes... Robins got stay in Thailand and he gives me a Green light to buy a house as I want in USA. (Yes, we have one house but this house is reserved for our son.)

Double blessing??? Yessssss, I want one insurance but God blesses me with 2 insurance.

Thank you to my Lord Jesus Christ.

NOTE: You think I am crazy because of the love that I have to my Lord Christ, let me be the most craziest woman in this world!! Let me be and I am OK for that. I love you my Christ till I depart from this world.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011


"Khun Helen you are fat!!!".... is the way my liver doctor's nurse greeting me yesterday.

Am I mad? Not at all. I am now 55 kilos (121 lbs, is this fat weight??), but I said that to her, "Well I can still see my big toe so I think I am not that fat."

I did my blood works 2 days ago and then in the afternoon I saw the kidney doctor and liver doctor.

I am doing well except my Prograf (Immune Suppressor pill), is now hitting my kidney. Kidney normal function range is (0-150), mine is now 225. For that reason I talked to kidney doctor yesterday.

"Is your urine cloudy?"... is one of the questions from my kidney doctor. I said, " I saw bubble but cloudy or not I have no idea." Now on I have to look at my urine and check that "going to rain or not?"

May I remind you all..... If your urine is cloudy please go see the kidney doctor!!!

My kidney doctor said I am still OK at 225. Said very very very mild case only. I asked, "Which level you think my kidney is getting sick?" He answered, " 500-1000!". Then I asked this again, "In this case why can't we say the normal range for kidney function is 1-500????" No answer though.

Kidney doctor said, if I hit level 3000 I have to do the kidney biopsy. One thing he telling me was,..... in my case to reach level 1000 to 3000 is, may be after 30 years. 30 years!!!!! Where will I be after 30 years??? Only my God knows.

Beside this I am doing well. I have nothing to complain as I am living 5 years full of life.

Any way in June I am going back to USA. I am talking on skype with my liver coordinator and see what I should do. May be I might see the Kidney doctor in University of Florida.

To change the subject.....

I was up north at my second house for 9 days. I did have a good time with my grandma. The care taker of my Gma left without notice. I was mad and worry about 95 years old lady at home alone. I went up and got a new care taker for her. We got one and she is 58 years old. Her name is "Boo Neer". I do have two problems with her. One, I have a hard time to call her name. Two, She talks too much. (Can you imagine if I say she talks too much knowing that me, myself talk alots too.)

It was real cold up north of Thailand. It was 7 t0 12 C for 2 days. The cold came with rain. I can't go out nor shopping. So I stayed at home eating and talking to my grandma.

One day my Gma was mad at me for just touching her comb which is made out of turtle back bone. She told me not to touch it again and said, it is antique!!

To change the subject..................

One very very happy news is... I got back my Insurance. I am so thankful to my God.

I lost my insurance for 4 months as they were asking 95,000 US$ for this year, 2011. My husband and I talked and we decided that we are not going to pay that much money to that SUCKER!!!$%^&*()$#@ #$%^%^&

For 10 years I was paying to this insurance, the sucker took it happily and the minutes I got hit by the cancer and got the new liver, the sucker increased the insurance almost 100% each year. How could they do this to any one???

One thing I am still thanks to the SUCKER is....., they paid my liver transplant fee which was huge payment. At lease something was good from the SUCKER.

To change the subject..............

I do pray. I do pray as I did not have insurance anymore. BUT I did not ask to my God to give or to help me back my insurance. Beside, I do believe in that there is nothing impossible with my Christ if you truly loves him. I just pray..."Dear God, I put my insurance in thy hands." That's it!!

My God never promises me that I am not going to die but God said, "Who ever believe in me shall be safe!". I also know that if my day comes, it's thy will too.
Tell me who's not going to die???

4 months I have been praying. I know in deep down in my heart that it is going to be very difficult for us without insurance and... I do not want to give our money to the SUCKER any more too. I am not stupid and also I am not BILL GATE's wife either. My medicine and my constant checking up and follow up is so expensive.

My husband was nice to me and said, "We will insurance by ourself. I trust in God. If anything happen to you, I will do my best. If we broke we broke!"

Now by the blessing we got what we want.

Thank you very much my GOD!

"If you are walking toward Jesus to the best of your ability, he will see you through life's unpredictable waters-----but you must risk launching the boat." said, Patsy Clairmont.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

I did it!!!!!!

I should say we did it than I did it.

The fund raising for the Project Thailand of University of Florida is over and finished. The cocktail party for them was so fun. Met the new and future doctors, also one old doctor. Old doctor means..., he has been a doctor for many years ago. This year according to Dr. Kevin they are 20 people from University of Florida, came to Thailand.

The vaccines were bought already. Cost us 165,000 baht and the good news is we still left over money which we can use it for the next year.

Some brought their envelopes along in the night of cocktail party. On that night we received 18,000 baht more.

We raised total 220,000 baht!!!!!!!

I feel so good for what we did. I am so thankful for these doctors are going on the mountain. I am so happy for the mountain children who are taking care by good doctors without fee. These children are monitored in computer and the team knows exactly what they need for the next year.

I would like to join them in person may be one of the future years.

Let me share with you this. It is from my prayer book. It said,

"Most of us have been blessed beyond measure, but sometimes, as busy people living in a demanding world, we're slow to count our gifts and even slower to give thanks to the Giver. Our blessings include life and health, family and friends, freedom and possessions - for starters. And those blessings are multiplied when we share them with others (with pure thankful heart).

As the old saying goes, "When we drink the water, we should remember the spring." So it's appropriate that those of us who have been richly blessed should give thanks for our gifts, no matter how busy we are.

Do you make it a habit to slow down each day and thank God for your talents, your opportunities, and your loved ones? If so, you've already learned that gratitude is its own reward - but no its only reward."

"I will bless them and the places surrounding my hill. I will send down showers in season; there will be showers of blessing."

Ezekiel 34:26

I started and donated to this fund for some reasons but the main reason is.....

I have many blessing. I no need to worry about my food, my shelter, my family and I have planty of friends. Well... I have to be honest here. Yes I worry sometime about my health and my halth insurance but I have faith that My God knows exactly what I need. What ever ahead of me, again I say..., "My God knows exactly what I need."

So thankful for teaching me to share my blessing.

We did it. That you so much to you all who sharing your belssing to this fund.

I did it which I never done before. Raising Fund for the needing people!!!!