Human Nature

As I said before I had faced liver cancer because of one lack of vaccine shot. Got the liver cancer and ended up liver transplant. I wish no one will face this nor to deal with it.

I learn to live my life to share my blessing, to care the needs, think about others and not me me and me all the time any more.

So I was thinking what can I do to help others and share my blessing.

There is a team of doctors from University of Florida (UF), who come to Bangkok Thailand once a year to learn the Asian health problems, help the local hospitals and go to the remote country side to help hill tribes people who have nothing much and...... to see the doctors is NOT on their lists of living unless they are dying.

This year I was thinking how can I do to help people. I have deiced to join the team of University of Florida. How??? is my first question. As a liver transplant receiver I have to watch out what to do and what not to do. I mean there are somethings which I can't help physically but other ways of helping.

So I come out with the idea of to raise the fund and buy the vaccines in Bangkok for the UF Team.

Someone helps us for the invitation cards, donated us for the receiption event. We also stop the flowers for my late father in law instead to donate the Project Thailand. We formed trustees group (who are also helping the donation + their time.)

OK now the donation and human nature how they related??

I sent out like 70 invitation cards to friends and business company.
Some are so generous just by mouth to mouth they donate to us without a question. Someone is working till midnight sending out emails and checking the Bank transfer.

Someone donated us XXXX US$ with one question wich is the money not to end up in the politician's hands. We respect his requested and we will make sure of that.

Some got invitation cards but not stop there and help us to spread the news to their friends.

Went to a friend's dinner. On that dinner table some who I met for the first time thrown in the donation.

Now see this........

In Bangkok I have been living in this building for 10 years now. Not big building OK side with different people with different background. I do get along with most (99%) of the people in this building.

Some poeple in the building do have grouping people but NOT for me. I like everyone and I am not allowed myself to group with any groups as saying, "Helen belong to this group". Of course I do have good friends and just friends who I enjoy different ways.

Honestly I do not want to invite all people from my building to my fund raising cocktail party. I have the reason to say so but I am not going to. Then I also thought this...., if I invite this person then that person also I have to invite too. Thinking they will piss at me. So I sent out invitation cards to all my building which is may be around 40 apartments.

Came back one day from my jewellery setting and my maid said, "Here some one sent this to your mail box." It was my invitation card. I said, "Hummmm some one so fast, nice and thinking about the poor on the mountain."

Then I opened it there was nothing inside just returned my invitation card!!! I said who is living such a low people in this building. I don't care they donate or not donate. I am an educated woman and I do not expected that every one must donate to this fund raising but I wish people shoud be a human nature and not like DOG!! No one will hurt even if this person donate or not donate nor comes to my cocktail or not comes. Now this person got my piss on him! Oh am I bad??? I think I am.

Actually everyone has free will and free choice so somehow I do understand to this person who sent me back the card. I just wish this person be a little human than like animal that's all. Am I wrong???

I could careless who do not come to my cocktail receptions. I even do not ask for RSVP! I do not ask nor gunpoint to no one that you have to donate us at all. But this is my wish.... I want only human being come to my cocktail party but not like DOG just need to do it because some one said so.

I have learn so much of the nature of human for just doing this little fund raising which is NOT for me or us but FOR the poor.

Me and you are sincerely or not, only me and you know right???

If I only raise 80 baht (2.5 US$), I am OK because someone big will knows my heart.

So proud of myself for this 80 bahts if I raise 80 baths!!!!!!!!!

Let me end with a prayer........

"Dear God,

Please bless this fund for us. May your power on the vaccines and prevent polio, liver cancer and all other problems for those who needed. Please bless to who donate this fund and also to who not donating because of some reasons but willing. Father you see much more than we see because you are God.

In Christ's name I pray,

Amen"

PS. We raise XXXXXX bahts for the fund already!!
Thank you so much to you all.